Why is it that if you are a strong individual and state your feelings openly to people that you are made to be the bad person?  I am not saying that I am ashamed of being out spoken or strong but I am tired of people saying behind my back that eveything has got to be about me!  That is a load of crap.  I will not apologize for people being afraid to confront the situation or to be opinionated.  That is one of our god and goddess given gifts.  We should not hide how we feel.  This was how I was raised and I will continue this way for my life.  If people want to be passive or passive aggressive that is not my problem and do not pass it off on me that it is my fault.  If you do not tell me there is a problem when I ask you "is everything ok" or "are you upset" then don't backstab me down the road and say that "everything is all about her".  Yes I am slightly angry at this.  Someone who I veiwed as a best friend has recently stated things similar about me.  She has said that they were going on for sometime now.  The thing is I am not bothered by her feelings, they are hers and she is allowed to feel them.  However, come to me and talk to me.  Don't post it online for me to read and then get upset.  That is very passive aggressive.  Now one could argue that I am doing the same here, but I have already seperately stated my feelings to her.  Now I am just ranting.  That is how I am I do not hide my feelings and I do not backstab people.  I feel so jaded now because this person has been feeling this way for months and never let on how she felt.  Never when I asked her if everything was ok did she take the time and say "hey I am upset with you when _____ happened".  How old are we again?   I guess it boils down to not really knowing an individual.  I thought I knew her, thought that we spent lots of good times together and were really close.  I hope for her sake that she can begin to confront her problems in the future instead of how she handled this situation.  It is not respectful to hear these things through the grapevine.  Like my mother always told me....if you can not say it to the person's face then don't say it at all!

Oui ve!  I finally have the internet running again.  It has been about a month.  I moved to a different place and we have been going back and forth with at&t about our internet.  But it is finally working again and I am happy about that!  YEAH!!  You really don't know how much you miss it until you don't have it.  One thing that is taken for granted....and with any addiction you begin to have withdrawls.  Yes the internet is definately a narcotic of sort....heheeeheee!  

Well since I have been gone I have changed alot of what I am doing.  I no longer belong to the Grove of Earthly Echoes...(which I have to change on my bio).  Good people there that I truely began to love and adore.  That sounds to girlie movie.  Well people that I respected to say the least.  I left because I wanted to work on my self and my religion.  The only funny thing was that after I left I barely heard from anyone.  I wasn't expecting to get a call or email daily I mean that is unreal, but really I was one of the leaders of the group and NO one called or emailed.  So that left a slight bitterness in my mouth and hurt feelings in my mind.  So I decided that I had left to be a solitaire practioner but not a solitaire person.  I mean I didn't want to be ALONE ALONE.  I mean no one to talk to, no one to hang out with, no one to do nothing with.  Yeah I know that there are double negatives in that sentence, but you get what I mean.  I didn't want to loose my friends and I did unknowingly.  And I know what you are thinking I could have called or emailed them.  Well I did!  But I am a firm believer that if it is a true friendship then it should not be one sided.  There shouldn't be just one person emailing or calling....both should.  So after about a month (yes it has been that long) I was talked into starting another group with three friends who were still there for me.  So here I go doing it again.  This time though not one person is going to have the brunt of the group to bear.  We are all in it together and we are going to make this work.

This is the new groups witchvox posting

http://www.witchvox.com/vn/vn_detail/dt_gr.html?a=usmi&id=30705 

Check us out we are in Lansing, Mi if you are interested in what you read email us.  If you are interested and do not live in this area still email us.  I think that we are going to be a great group and we are focusing on teaching and learning what Wicca is for each of us.  I hope that GoEE is doing well! Love and Light GoEE!

Love and Light,

Sellestia 

 

 

Since about Friday night I have been hearing my Goddess, Danu, alot more frequently. I don't know if this is because I have chosen to focus on my path more or if it is because I am not so bogged down by everything else. Either way this has been very refreshing.

1. On Friday night as I was driving home from visiting friends she stated to me loud and clearly that, "if you were as passionate about your path as you are of other peoples path then you would live a much happier life. you need to get your nose out of there path's and stick it into yours". This did not have any hidden meaning to me and I clearly understood. I am hoping that by taking the solitaire route again that this will help.

2.Then last night as I was laying down to go to sleep she whispers to me that beginning Monday morning I need to burn a leaf of sage every morning to begin purifying myself again. She said this while I was beginning to fall asleep so she kindly told me to write it down so that I did not forget.

3.And tonight while I was at work I went into the kitchen to get my dinner (sloppy joes, french fries, salad, and fruit was on the menu). I began to get my plate and went towards the sloppy joes. She kept saying "no". So I decided to begin by making a salad. As I was doing that my co-worker asks me if I am going to have a sloppy joe and out of nowhere I half yell "does everyone have to have meat". Then everyone looks at me and I am slightly taken off guard by my response, which was definately Danu talking, and I say "well do we". Then I decide ok I will just grap my salad, fruit, and fries and call it good since I had that small outburst. As I am eating Danu says "this is so you will begin appreciating me better". She didn't state that I needed to become a vegetarian but that I need to begin eating less meat and more fruits and veggies, which lack alot in my diet.

So this has been a crazy couple days but I am definately enjoying her presence more. It has been a long time since I have felt completely connected with Danu and I am glad she is still around. She has my best intrest at heart and that I am grateful for. There is nothing better than the gods and goddesses blessing us with their words and knowledge.

Blessings!

So I just got back from going to Florida for a week.  I had a great time while I was there. Visited my in-laws and drank pina coladas on the beach.  It was a great rejuvination.  But while I was down there I realized something that I had forgotten.  Even with as much ambition that I have and as much as I want to do for the Pagan Community...I need to slow down and take it one step at a time.  I need to make sure that I have time for my family who love's and supports me.  Things don't just stop even if you are too busy to stay on top of them.  While I was down there my father-in-law told my husband and me that he was divorcing his wife (who is a step mom) that he has been married to for only a year.  He told us that she has become verbally abusive towards him.  So of course we are supporting him with this decision.  And my grandmother-in-law who is turning 93 this August...is moving into an independent living community so that she won't have to be alone anymore.  All of these things have been happening around me and I need to take time and breath.  Everything will come in due time I am young and have plenty of time for all of the stuff but I need to make lots of time for my family.  This summer is going to be about me spending more time with all of my family and less time fixating on how to help the community in Lansing.  I can due more of that later.  I am just becoming tired of being so passionate about this that I don't want to lose my spark forever.  We'll see what comes of this summer and see where I am at the end of the year.

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